If I Was your Girl

If I Was your Girl

eBook - 2016
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The award-winning, big-hearted novel about being seen for who you really are, and a love story you can't help but root for

Amanda Hardy is the new girl in school. Like anyone else, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is keeping a secret, and she's determined not to get too close to anyone.

But when she meets sweet, easygoing Grant, Amanda can't help but start to let him into her life. As they spend more time together, she realizes just how much she is losing by guarding her heart. She finds herself yearning to share with Grant everything about herself, including her past. But Amanda's terrified that once she tells him the truth, he won't be able to see past it.

Because the secret that Amanda's been keeping? It's that at her old school, she used to be Andrew. Will the truth cost Amanda her new life, and her new love?

Stonewall Book Award Winner
Walter Dean Myers Honor Book for Outstanding Children's Literature
iBooks YA Novel of the Year
A Publishers Weekly Best Book of the Year
A Kirkus Reviews Best Book of the Year
An Amazon Best Book of the Year
A Goodreads Choice Award Finalist
A Zoella Book Club Selection
A Barnes & Noble Best YA Book of the Year
A Bustle Best YA Book of the Year
IndieNext Top 10
One of Flavorwire's 50 Books Every Modern Teenager Should Read

Publisher: New York : Flatiron Books, c2016
ISBN: 9781250078421
Characteristics: 1 online resource (280 pages)


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May 21, 2018

I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. Wish I could go and live in the story with her.

May 15, 2018

A lot of good reviews about this book I think are only warranted because it comes from the perspective of an actual trans person. For transgender readers looking for a validating and encouraging story, I advise looking to the back of the book where the author pens a letter to her fellow trans people, as well as one separately for allies. It will tell you in advance what you can expect and why she is disappointed she could not paint a more realistic picture of life as a transgender teenager. I also feel it appropriate to warn that the love interest's reactions to the protagonist's transgender status is violent and awful to read about. Not something that made me as a reader want to revisit the book any time soon. There is forced outing, small degrees of acceptance, but overall not an uplifting tale. I think it's fair for the author to write a book like this, but definitely seems like a book for ally's understanding more than healing or optimism for trans readers.

Feb 21, 2018

This is an amazing book with a great purpose. When I first saw it on the shelves of the library, I thought it was just another romance novel but it was so much more than just that. The story is really one of a kind and it's now one of my favorites. I highly recommend this book to anyone.

This book is an amazing account of what it is like growing up transgender in the south.

Nov 12, 2017

A truly amazing book that tells a story that is so many others. Has important lessons and really portrays a struggle. I definetly reccomend!

RDPL_Teens Aug 09, 2017

I loved his book! I loved how it spoke about the experience of a young transgendered woman from her perspective. I loved that it was written by a member of the transgender community and loosely based on her own experience and that it didn't end as I thought it would. It caused me to examine some of my own assumptions or biases during the course of my reading it too, which was so valuable. Excellent YA read!

Jun 25, 2017

This charming young adult novel tells the story of Andrew's transition into Amanda and Amanda's journey to self-acceptance while navigating the perilous waters of a small town high school. Parts of the book are based on the the author's real-life experiences as a trans woman. The transgender issues and experiences make this novel worth reading; however, the story itself closely follows the typical girl-meets-boy romance formula.

Jun 07, 2017

This is an important book. I enjoyed learning about the transgender community through the eyes of Amanda. Her story is good and honest and raw and I enjoyed the layers and multiple perspectives. I found myself wanting more from this book: more substance, more story (longer -- it's a short ass book), richer language, more detail, and more conflict. It didn't feel like enough for me and I struggled with how it was written, which seemed basic. Overall, it was a good book and I think it is vital and is a great addition to LGBTQA+ literature; I feel as if it could have been more than it was.

Apr 17, 2017

This is definitely now one of my favorite books. I read it so fast, it really drew me in and I couldn't put it down. Really worth reading.

Nov 27, 2016

There are any number of reasons why someone would pick up this book...for me it was a desire to learn and understand about the issues a transgender individual faces. I rated this book 3 out of 5 stars, because it didn't fully meet my expectations. I almost wish that the comments by the author, Meredith Russo, had preceeded the novel instead of being at the end of it. Amanda Hardy is a post-surgical transgender teen who moves in with her dad after it becomes clear that she isn't safe in her current town. It reads a lot like a Hallmark After-School Special, and although we have glimpses of reality in flashbacks, most elements of this story seem quite unrealistic. Taking it at face value, it is a work of fiction and hopefully teens who are dealing with trans issues or curious about trans issues will read the author's comments and understand that she took considerable liberties with Amanda Hardy's path toward her true self. I am thankful for this story, and especially for resouces listed in the back of the book for teens (and adults) who wish to seek support.

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May 21, 2018

A book about loving yourself and being loved for who you really are.

May 21, 2018

Important and Brave. Read this wonderful book. Just read it.
-Jennifer Niven.

May 21, 2018

''Real and Raw and Layered and Wonderful.''
-Alex Gino

Jun 14, 2016

From the Author's Note: “It’s okay if you’re different from Amanda. She isn’t real, and you are.”

Jun 14, 2016

“There are enough people waiting to crap in your cereal without you doing it for them.”


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Sexual Content: Attempted sexual assault

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Jun 14, 2016

Looking for a fresh start, Amanda Hardy transfers to Lambertville High, going to live with her estranged father for the first time since her parents’ divorce. She plans to keep her head down, blend in, and finish her senior year of high school. Then she wants to move up north for university, and hopefully escape some of the prejudice and fear that drove her out of her school in Atlanta, where everyone knew that Amanda had recently transitioned. But when she meets and falls for Grant, her plans to lie low in Lambertville become a lot more complicated. She wants Grant to accept all of her, including her history, but coming out in Lambertville may be even riskier than it was in Atlanta.

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